Birthday

Today I turned 30, wow! I have a new baby bird, which I call "Baby" for now. Phoenix and baby seem to be getting along. Both seem to need each other, as phoniex, lost lady hawk and Baby is in a new home. My family bought me a very nice bird perch so now they can hang out in a treelike structure and I can keep things a bit cleaner. I'm going to NYC this weekend to party and see a lady friend named JJ. Life is good.

Good-bye Ladyhawk

Today Ladyhawk died. I'm trying to deal with how fragile life is and how fast it changes. In the early morning they both make so much noise and the only thing that quiets them is being near me while I sleep. I put a towel down on my bed and slept next to them with my blanket. A few hours later she must have cuddle up to me in the middle my sleep and sufficated under my back. I woke up and Phoenix was on top of me, calm, but I was looking for Ladyhawk, it was quiet. When I finally got up and turned around and saw her motionless on her belly. I tried to wake her up, even CPR and running water but her body was limp and her eyes were barely open. I saw no response and knew a chapter in my life had passed. I put her in a pretty box and put it under Buddha. I said Namu Amitabba 10 times and said good bye but she's still in my thoughts. Ladyhawk was the most wonderful curious little cockiteil I have ever met. I'm so sorry that this happen, Ladyhawk. Your loss has hurt Phoenix and I will try to keep him happy. I hope your are reborn in the Pure Land. You will always be in my heart and in my mind. Love, Paully